I feel the winds are changing and I am for once embracing them.
I have always been afraid of getting too close to someone or letting someone get close to me. Each time the heart gets broken another brick goes up around the heart I try so hard to protect, but that I give completely. How is it possible to allow someone to come in and knock it all down. Hoping and praying that it isn't another let down. Wanting to see if this will be the person to take all the worries away and be my everything.
In past relationships, the fire burned hot at the beginning but then died very quickly. I've tried to use different strategies with relationships; playing hard to get, not playing hard to get, being girlie, being confident, being meek, and just trying to be me....
I've noticed all I have to be is myself... what a nice feeling that is. I don't have to pretend to like things that I really don't... don't have to save face to keep from getting into an argument. I can actually say something, and he listens... He actually wants to know what MY interests are and appreciates them! He takes time to make sure that I am happy! He appreciates honesty and lives by it!
Can couples overcome age? Location? Hardships? What is the key? Is it that no matter what, you look into each others eyes and realize how you fell in love in the first place??
Is it normal to always laugh with that person?? That they make you happy just doing nothing except looking at you?
God, I hope this is not a dream..... because you make it easy to fall in love with you!
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Feelin Like a Teenager!!
You make me feel like a teenager again...
the way you look into my eyes...
the way you hold my hand...
the way you kiss me with all that you are...
Your words swim in my head and make me smile....
Your eyes make me want to go to the ends of the earth with you...
I have so much I want to say, but yes, I am afraid...
I want to trust and listen to my heart,
but I am scared...
I want to just jump in with both feet and not care about anything else except us...
I know what I am feeling for you!
And I will trust in my heart to tell me what is right... although I already know the answer...
the way you look into my eyes...
the way you hold my hand...
the way you kiss me with all that you are...
Your words swim in my head and make me smile....
Your eyes make me want to go to the ends of the earth with you...
I have so much I want to say, but yes, I am afraid...
I want to trust and listen to my heart,
but I am scared...
I want to just jump in with both feet and not care about anything else except us...
I know what I am feeling for you!
And I will trust in my heart to tell me what is right... although I already know the answer...
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Death
Why does death always make you think about living?
I lost a friend this week. We grew up together and we are the same age. Scary to think that life was taken with so little time on this planet.
I wonder if I will ever find what it is I am looking for.
Death makes you want to make changes in the way you look at life.
Suddenly I want to exercise, stop smoking, and keep in touch with friends that I think will be there forever.
I wonder what people will say about me, when it is time. I wonder what memory will pop into their heads when they hear that I am gone??
How long will it take people to completely forget about me?
What impact will I have had on people?
Will anyone ever name there kid after me?? I have a really cool name!
Interesting the things you think about at a time like this.
I lost a friend this week. We grew up together and we are the same age. Scary to think that life was taken with so little time on this planet.
I wonder if I will ever find what it is I am looking for.
Death makes you want to make changes in the way you look at life.
Suddenly I want to exercise, stop smoking, and keep in touch with friends that I think will be there forever.
I wonder what people will say about me, when it is time. I wonder what memory will pop into their heads when they hear that I am gone??
How long will it take people to completely forget about me?
What impact will I have had on people?
Will anyone ever name there kid after me?? I have a really cool name!
Interesting the things you think about at a time like this.
Monday, September 6, 2010
Careful what you say...
I try to understand why people say the things they say.
Why can't people say what they really mean, and not hide behind "gossip"?
The saying is true, if they gossip with you... they will gossip about you!!
Gossip and rumors can be very hurtful. When you try to get in the middle of it, you end up regretting ever getting involved!
I am the type of person that will tell it just like it is. I can't understand why other people don't do the same! Life would be so much easier if people would just say what they really want to say.
I wish everyone would learn to appreciate everyone for their differences! If you don't like what that person says... tell them. If you don't like what a person is doing... tell them!! How can we learn to be better friends, lovers, and neighbors... if we don't say anything!!
Everyone wants honesty, but few can handle it without getting their feelings hurt.
Life would be so much better if we just learned to be open and listen without getting upset!
Why can't people say what they really mean, and not hide behind "gossip"?
The saying is true, if they gossip with you... they will gossip about you!!
Gossip and rumors can be very hurtful. When you try to get in the middle of it, you end up regretting ever getting involved!
I am the type of person that will tell it just like it is. I can't understand why other people don't do the same! Life would be so much easier if people would just say what they really want to say.
I wish everyone would learn to appreciate everyone for their differences! If you don't like what that person says... tell them. If you don't like what a person is doing... tell them!! How can we learn to be better friends, lovers, and neighbors... if we don't say anything!!
Everyone wants honesty, but few can handle it without getting their feelings hurt.
Life would be so much better if we just learned to be open and listen without getting upset!
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