Questions...

Why are the important questions in a relationship the hardest to ask?
How do you know when what you are asking is the right question?
How do I ask someone if they are in a relationship for just the physical part of it or the emotional part? Or both?
How do I ask if the questions I am having are because I am insecure or because I am scared of the possibilities?
How do I ask, and not run the risk of sounding needy or desperate?
Why does it have to be so hard to meet, fall in love, and get the happily ever after?
Why can't things just be...
Why do you have to work so hard to just be happy?

the X factor

Life was good until recently.
My X and his family have moved back into the area.
I recently ran into him and his wife.
Why is it that when you see someone like that, it brings up all the dreaded memories that you have tried really hard to bury?
The feelings of mistrust, insecurity, and heartache come back like it was yesterday. You hear the heartache all over again.
How is that one person can make you feel so low?

The Feeling...

The feeling I get when you are around is euphoric.
From the smallest look in your eyes, to the excitement in your voice,
it sends me to a place I haven't felt in a long time.
The feel of your kiss, the look on your face, the smile that tells me just how much you care.
It feels right, it feels natural... no pretending, no lies...
I love that you are a man's man. That you don't hold anything back, and that you are passionate in your beliefs and wants.
I love that you open my door!!! That you ask me what I want or need.
I love that you trusted our relationship enough to introduce me to your girls.
I love that you want to include me in the things that are important in your life.
I love that you have helped me to find the passion that was missing in my life!
I love that you are supportive in the things that I want to do.
I just love you!

stress...

They say that money is the root of all evil, I think it is root of all stress!
Where once I had enough to get what I wanted, now I barely have enough to pay the bills!
I feel like a failure as a parent because I can't get my son what he wants or even what he needs! I used to enjoy being able to buy things for people or lend them money when they most needed it. I always figured that what comes around goes around. Now I am hoping that I win the lottery and not have to worry.
I wish I had enough money to just get my son a used car and afford the insurance, I wish I had enough to get my roof redone on my house, I wish I had enough money to get new tires for my car, I wish I had enough money to get my son his senior ring, I wish I had enough money to pay off some of my bills!
The stress of not having enough money would and has driven some people to the extreme! I just wonder, why???
I have actually gotten to the point of telling the man of my dreams that we might need to take a break for a while, so that I can look for a third job! Why do we work so hard for so little??? Why do we put relationships on hold, and force our kids to work for our short comings??? I don't want my son to work just yet... he will be working for the rest of his life, he will have to deal with this stress someday... just not now.
I am still optimistic in that all things work out the way they are supposed to, but it still sucks in the mean time!!!

Exciting new year?

So far so good, have I jinxed myself??
I feel like this year will be the one to remember!
If I can hold on.
I am super excited about the students I have! They have so far shown me that they can actually think for themselves! WOW!
They have background knowledge of the events that we are going to study!
I feel like I have won the lottery!

I am starting this year with so many positives...
The bubble has to burst at some point or is it supposed to be like this?

Not knowing...

Why is it when people are scared they argue?
Why do people fight with one another?
Honesty seems to take a back seat to emotion, why?
To me the innocence of a relationship gets lost when you have an argument.
Are arguments meant to show you just how you feel about someone? Does it show you that you really do care deeply for that person, or maybe you don't care at all?
What do you say when it's over? Do you forgive and forget? Do you learn from it? Does it show you the true emotion of someone?
A brick wall is very easy to build but extremely hard to tear down.
Why?

Six days and counting...

Six days and counting before the summer officially ends!
I am looking forward to it and then I am not. This summer has been very interesting and I will be sad to see it come to an end.
I feel that I have accomplished a lot but then again, I feel like I haven't done much of anything.
I am afraid of things changing too much and there will be little time for the things that have developed. I am afraid of falling into the same 'ol routine and only having one day, Saturday, to do anything fun.
The school year hasn't even started and I am already looking forward to the first holiday... Thanksgiving!
I hope this year goes by as fast as the summer has!
Just get ready for me to rant and rave about the kids, other teachers, and of course the administration!
Good luck to those in the educational field, may the force be with you!