Exciting new year?

So far so good, have I jinxed myself??
I feel like this year will be the one to remember!
If I can hold on.
I am super excited about the students I have! They have so far shown me that they can actually think for themselves! WOW!
They have background knowledge of the events that we are going to study!
I feel like I have won the lottery!

I am starting this year with so many positives...
The bubble has to burst at some point or is it supposed to be like this?

Not knowing...

Why is it when people are scared they argue?
Why do people fight with one another?
Honesty seems to take a back seat to emotion, why?
To me the innocence of a relationship gets lost when you have an argument.
Are arguments meant to show you just how you feel about someone? Does it show you that you really do care deeply for that person, or maybe you don't care at all?
What do you say when it's over? Do you forgive and forget? Do you learn from it? Does it show you the true emotion of someone?
A brick wall is very easy to build but extremely hard to tear down.
Why?

Six days and counting...

Six days and counting before the summer officially ends!
I am looking forward to it and then I am not. This summer has been very interesting and I will be sad to see it come to an end.
I feel that I have accomplished a lot but then again, I feel like I haven't done much of anything.
I am afraid of things changing too much and there will be little time for the things that have developed. I am afraid of falling into the same 'ol routine and only having one day, Saturday, to do anything fun.
The school year hasn't even started and I am already looking forward to the first holiday... Thanksgiving!
I hope this year goes by as fast as the summer has!
Just get ready for me to rant and rave about the kids, other teachers, and of course the administration!
Good luck to those in the educational field, may the force be with you!

Walls....

The trick is to be true to one's own self and keep the faith that the person who finally showed up is supposed to be in your life for that moment and hopefully for more moments to come. If we live in our past experiences too deeply, we might miss the moment that was intended to place us in the clouds. If we become so cynical and not believe ourselves the chance to be loved, then we doom ourselves to eternal misery.
After reading Wonko's post again, I have to comment on this paragraph. I wish I could have thought of it.
I believe that a lot of my failures in past relationships has come from living too much in the past. I think that no matter what anyone says, relationships take a little piece of your soul, every time they don't work out. This is why in a lot of songs artist will refer to "building a wall around my heart". I think we are all guilty of it. I probably built the biggest wall! Too afraid of feeling that pain again...
I became afraid to let someone in! I was subconsciously "dooming myself to eternal misery"! Even with my last relationship (the one that moved in unexpectedly ), I never fully allowed him in, thank God! That turned out to be a total nightmare! But I'll never forget my mother telling me that that relationship was the key that unlocked the door to the possibility of allowing myself a real relationship.
The man in my life now... makes me walk in the clouds! For the first time I am not afraid! Not afraid to hope, wish, dream... that everyday I feel like I did the day I met him.
I want to love him more tomorrow than I did today!