Walls....

The trick is to be true to one's own self and keep the faith that the person who finally showed up is supposed to be in your life for that moment and hopefully for more moments to come. If we live in our past experiences too deeply, we might miss the moment that was intended to place us in the clouds. If we become so cynical and not believe ourselves the chance to be loved, then we doom ourselves to eternal misery.
After reading Wonko's post again, I have to comment on this paragraph. I wish I could have thought of it.
I believe that a lot of my failures in past relationships has come from living too much in the past. I think that no matter what anyone says, relationships take a little piece of your soul, every time they don't work out. This is why in a lot of songs artist will refer to "building a wall around my heart". I think we are all guilty of it. I probably built the biggest wall! Too afraid of feeling that pain again...
I became afraid to let someone in! I was subconsciously "dooming myself to eternal misery"! Even with my last relationship (the one that moved in unexpectedly ), I never fully allowed him in, thank God! That turned out to be a total nightmare! But I'll never forget my mother telling me that that relationship was the key that unlocked the door to the possibility of allowing myself a real relationship.
The man in my life now... makes me walk in the clouds! For the first time I am not afraid! Not afraid to hope, wish, dream... that everyday I feel like I did the day I met him.
I want to love him more tomorrow than I did today!